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| I wish you were here.
I need you right now.
I wish I would've held back my stubborn anger; that we would still be friends.
I wish you would've fought for our friendship; tried harder.
I wish someone would have told me to work it out with you.
I need my best friend right now.
I don't know the person I've become some days.
I want to cry in your arms.
Laugh so hard my stomach hurts.
Why did we have to change?
Why did we grow up?
I miss you everyday of my life.
I wish I could tell you everything.
I wish things would've gone differently.
I wish we would've lived closer together.
Some days I would do anything to have you back.
I wish I could cry right now.
I wish that you find happiness,
but am sad that I'm no longer in your life.
I wish I could tell you everything,
and you know exactly what's going on.
You are so far away.
We are so disconnected.
I wish it was different
I miss you so much
I need you right now
so much stuff is going on in my life
I want you standing beside me
I wish you were here. | | |
| So this past weekend Chris and I went back to Pine City. We left after Chris was done with work Friday night/Saturday morning. We got to Pine about 5 AM due to construction along the way. Chris and I slept for awhile and then that afternoon we went to his aunt's bridal shop to pick up my dress and figure out tiaras, etc. I ended up getting my dress, veil, tiara, and shoes that day. All for amazing prices!!! Whoo! I love that woman. It was cool to see it all come together and Kathy helped me pick out my jewelry for the wedding also. Sunday, Chris's dad, brother, and he and I went to St. Cloud for the Air Show. It was amazing. We got there about 8 AM when the doors opened and stayed until about 4 - 4:30 PM. Let's just say, all of us got a little bit of sun. My arms are a little tight and sore. And I got really dehydrated that day so I wasn't feeling too hot yesterday. But with the help of aloe, water, and powerade, I am feeling much better. I have a lot of pictures of the show to post on facebook, I just need to find my cable to get them on my computer :) Now today. It's my birthday!! I'm 24 today. I never feel the age that I am. It's actually weird to me that it's actually my birthday. Where did the summer go?!? I think it's because of all the crappy weather that our May pretty much disappeared. Anyway, I am at work today and then Renee has her first wedding dress fitting so I will meet up with her after and then she, Becky, my mom, and myself are meeting up for my birthday meal. Still don't know where I want to go, all I know is that I hope there's ice cream!!! haha. Wedding planning is going well. I need to get a kick in the butt and get my invitations printed. I keep procrastinating and July 24th (send out date) is coming up fast!!! Chris has been wonderful, he asked this weekend, "So after invites are done, what's next on the list?" I told him I have to check my task list, because really I don't know. I think it's pretty much finalizing everything and paying for everything. Whoo!! Lastly, 4th of July weekend is upon us. Which means LONSKI FAMILY REUNION!!!! So excited!! It's is up at my cousin/godmother's lake place in Devils Lake. I am so excited to see everyone and have my bridal shower! mmm...gifts and mimosas...doesn't get much better than that. :) | | |
| or just @shoeguru14. I had written this to her and she thought I should post it. I have a friend/aquaintance on facebook whose facebook status was, "Is it too much to ask for a Rory Gilmore!?!?!?! :(" My response in my head was this little rant, "First off, Rory Gilmore is a fictional character. They can make her however they want. I think it's funny that out of all the fictional characters, he picks Rory. I used to watch that show a lot, therefore Chris had to watch it and one time he randomly goes, "You know, Rory's kind of turned into a whore." I was kind of offended by the comment at first, but then he explained it. At the start of the show, she was a naive do-gooder. She dated Dean and never did anything wrong. As she got older, she liked Jesse when she was still dating Dean, she made out with Dean when he was married, and then when she started college, she dated Logan=bad boy, rebel, rich boy. Everyone that looks at Rory, they think she is just a sweet, innocent girl from the early seasons, but they never realize how much, as Chris would say it, skanking she was doing. So when I read Eric's status I chuckled to myself. So he wants a skanky girl who goes for other guys while she's dating another?? Oh yah, that is a good girl to date!! haha! Yes, she loves to read, is ambitious, etc. but she still kind of has a bad reputation towards the end of the show. But still everyone loves her (I don't get it) So do guys really want a Rory Gilmore???" And THEN, this guy is really going to aggrevate me with his status updates, he writes, "Hahahaha I need to get out of North Dakota!!! These chicks... Haha wow... A. You don't know how to dance... You look like a ghetto ass stripper B. You are not that good looking... Not even close... & C. Try Vodka instead on beer... It might help with the belly issue! Ha where the eff am I? Help me!! Ahhhhhh" I had to kind of stand on my soap box and tell him what I thought, "Yah that status is kind of a dislike of mine. A: Who cares if they don't know how to dance, at least they are out there having a good time. Although dancing as a stripper could leasen, especially in ND because seriously?? You live in ND. You are not a stripper, don't dance like one. B: A girl can't help if she is not good looking. We just have to work with what we have. C: Really? That is the biggest A-hole comment ever. I can't believe you said that. I love my vodka, but not everyone likes it and prefers beer. Their weight should not have to decide what beverage they should be able to drink. Maybe the amount they drink or the amount spent on exercise, but not their choice of beverage." Really? How shallow can you be? Do you think you are God's gift to women? Umm...I think not. No wonder you are single and miserable. No woman will put up with your SHIT. **More will come soon** | | |
| (I was going to write this post a long time ago, but am now just getting to it. It's okay because it still pertains.) AHHH! I hate winter! My skin is so itchy and scratchy. I am finding new ways to scratch and hit all the dry spots: circular motions on my fingers, a chair that hits the middle of my back, etc. But all of this seems to not work. I want to throw myself in a tub of lotion and just moisturize in it for a few days. I put lotion on and about a minute later my hands are dried up again. It's horrible that the one thing I get from my grandmother (besides the talent of touching my nose with my tongue) is this wretched dry skin of mine. AGH! :scratch scratch scratch: I feel like I am having spasms sometimes because I am itching so hard or can not get to a spot. My head, neck, ALL of my back, elbows, fingers, sides, stomach, legs, back of the knee, calves (they might be the 2nd worse), and even my toes are itchy and have dry skin. UGH!! I HATE WINTER!! Yes in the summer I still have dry skin, but the winter makes it SO much worse. :scratch: After I scratch one area, another becomes itchy. :scratch: At the beginning to mid winter I thought God didn't liek me because I went to France last winter and didn't have to deal with dry skin too much so he is making it 4x worse on me this winter. I never remember having itchy skin this bad. :itch: :scratch: But I know that's not true. I don't think all the lotions and moisturizers in the world could help me at my present state. :scratch: This is my current and long lasting problem. UGH! :itch itch: In other words, Chris and I (with my parents) are going to check out wedding reception sites on Saturday. We are checking out Holiday Inn and then Courtyard Mariott in Moorhead. We were going to check out Ramada too, but when I show Chris the site he decided he really wouldn't want to have the reception there. Cool, one less place to check out. This weekend, we talked alot about wedding. Tried on some dresses (still trying to find "the one"), talked about budget, reception sites, centerpieces, guests, some music selections, etc. I'm getting to the point that I have a pretty good picture in my head of what I want, but now I want to actually DO something and GET stuff done. Luckily, I got Chris to help out. I really want a 60/40% effort here with the wedding--that would be nice. But he did call the reception sites and set up the appointments. My next goal, is the have him all DJs and Limo Services to check out prices. Maybe I will have him do that next week. With me luck with the wedding and ESPECIALLY this Dang Dry Skin!!! | | |
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